JUST MARRIED!!

On Dec 6, 2006 exchanged vows and got married!! :) best day of my life!! So yesturday I went and got my last name changed, and got my military ID, we still have to go back on post and go to the hospital. I have the flu :( I shoulda got a flu shot before Ii moved, but I never get it and never get the flu..so I did'nt think I'd need it. =(

It's sooo wonderful having my husband home!! I have'nt been this happy in a looong ass time!! hmm I love him SO much! so tonight we are going to this hockey game thing, because they are doing something for the soldiers that got purple hearts, and his company told him he has to go..so yeah. never been to a hockey game before, so it should be cool, I hope. I dont think I should be going out with the flu, but he has to go, and I wanna go with my hubby. =)well heres a few pictures of us getting married, more of them are on myspace.


BRUCE PUTTING THE WEDDING BAND ON MY FINGER!


PUTTING HIS WEDDING BAND ON HIS FINGER!


YOU MAY KISS THE BRIDE!!


HUSBAND AND WIFE!!

HE IS HOME!!!

After a very long 16 month deployment and not seeing him for 1 year and 4 days straight, he is FINALLY HOME FOR GOOD!! I am soooo happy!! I haven't been this happy in a long time! Last night was so so so wonderful! Lots of amazing love making, hehe!! And a very nice bubble bath!! It's just so nice to finally have him home, I have missed him so much but very worth the wait!

The Homecoming wasn't that long. When they got to the base, we were in a big gym thingy, they opened the doors and all the soldiers go out of the buses and marched in front of us. I got it all recorded! We were not worried about taking pictures so we only got 1 homecoming picture, LOL. This Soldier said some words and everyone ran to their soldier...Oooh once I saw Bruce I jumped on him and wrapped my legs around him and kissed him so deeply!!! Our love is much stronger now! We can get through anything.

Well we started TTC last night and I'm hoping I will get a BFP at the end of the month!! I had a Laparoscopy done last month to find out I have Endometriosis and the doctors want to already give me a hysterectomy at the age of 18!??!!? But I told them HELL NO! I had a miscarriage right before Bruce deployed in July 05 and I am still not doing so very well with that. We even TTC on his 2 weeks of R&R from Iraq in Nov 2005 but no luck... When I got pregnant in late April I was sooo happy even though I was only 17 but Bruce and I were so happy and excited. We were already engaged and knew we were getting married and gonna spend the rest of our lives together and have lots of children! :) Our whole lives all we've ever wanted, besides each other, is children. So I really hope it happens fast! The doctor that did my surgery said it could take a few months or a year or 2 to even get pregnant because of how bad my Endometriosis is, but then again he said I also could get pregnant the SAME month we start trying. It all depends on both the people and the woman's body and man's sperm. So I'm really hoping and praying I get pregnant THIS month!! How exciting would that be! Him get home and BAM I get pregnant and in 9 months we are holding our babygirl or babyboy. I know God will help me with getting pregnant and I don't think it's going to take too long! I bet by the end of the year that I will be pregnant!! Please pray for us!!

First kiss in 12 months and 4 days and my baby's purple heart!!

Surgery Results And 12 Days Til Alaska!

Wow, time is just flying on by! It really is!! So I know what date Bruce will get home but I can't post it! Not too long after I get there, end of the month! I'm so lucky and thankful to get my soldier home and right before Christmas! I really don't know what are plans are. I know we are going to Colorado to see his family and Oklahoma to see him, during his leave. He is getting 45 days of leave!! We are spending Christmas in Colorado then driving to Oklahoma after wards!

My surgery went well. I don;t have any tumors or even a cyst. I have Endometriosis, they larsed it out along with a ton of old blood that isn't suppose to be in there. I will have to get surgery again in a 1 or 2. So that explains my pelvic pain. I'm hurting like hell! I can't even get up on my own, someone has to lift me up to my feet. It sucks but need to hurry and heal so I can remain going tanning, hehe!! I have my check up next thrusday.

I also want to thank EVERYONE who has been here for me through this deployment!

Down In The Teens!! 9 More Days Til Alaska!

Down in the teens! HOOAH! I'm so happy that this time is going by so fast!! i got almost all my packing done and my Grams took me monday to get my coat! I love it and it is very warm! Was expensive but my Grams said it'll be worth it when I'm in Alaska! Still got to order Romeo's coat. I'm taking him to the Vet on the 16th, to get health papers so he can fly.

Well I went to the speicalist today, I'm having surgery monday morning at 11am. They are doing a Lap, gonna look inside me around my ovaries and if there's a cyst they will drain them, which the doctor thinks I have a ton! And if there are any tumors they will remove it. They want to know why I am having suck bad pelvic pain. It only takes a few days to recover, so I'm doing it before I move to Alaska. I coulda waited til after I get to Alaska but we will be busy and stuff til like Jan. I go tomorrow at 11am for my pre-op. I'm really scared to have surgery, please pray for me everything, and that it goes well! Thank you!

Countdown Is Back On!! 25 More Days Til Alaska!!

Well I am now leaving for Alaska on Nov 21st!!! I am sooo excited! Only 25 more days! Bruce just booked my ticket so it's offical!! Flight is at 2:30pm! I still gotta call about Romeo and got to take him to the Vet within a week before we fly. I got some more boxes to pack my stuff and next thurdays I'm going coat shopping with my grams! Gonna be VERY cold in Alaska when I get there! I got a doctors apt on thrusday with a specialist so see why I am having this bad pelvic pain. Pray everything goes well!!

Happy 18th Birthday To Me!!!

I just got back from getting my 1st tattoo!! I was so scared at first but it actually didn't hurt! I LOVED the feeling!! It looks great!! Before I went to go get my Tattoo I got 150 roses in the mail from MY BRUCEY!! He is so sweet!! Gosh, I love that man!! My brother and I was gonna go to the Casino but I dunno what I'm gonna do tonight, may not do anything since I am in so much pain..

SCREW THE ARMY!! * EDIT*

Bruce isn't coming home in 3 days..He's coming home in 4-6 more months!! He is going to Baghdad because the soldiers there can't do their damn jobs! This is bullshit! He was 4 fucking days to be coming home now 4-6 months!! I really don't wanna hear sorry and shit from anyone. Now it will be ONE FUCKING YEAR STRAIGHT I WON'T SEE HIM!! Bruce said there is a slight chance he could still be home in 3 days, but with the Army I fucking doubt it!!

Edit::
So it's offical 4-6 months now. What the fuck.. So Bruce called and he wants me to be strong for him but I don't think I have that extra strengh I need. If he stays there 6 months that'll be 14 months I won't see him. That's such bullshit! They should get other soldiers to go to Baghdad. Baghdad is so bad right now and I'm scared and worried. I just want to be with him..in his arms and married..and pregnant.

6 More Days Til Alaska!!

I'm so excited to be moving in 6 days and see my Soldier in 7!! YAY!!! So I got a lot of packing done yesterday, i was gonna pack more this afternoon but I'm in so much pain so I didn't. This week I'm gonna be very busy, so I don't know how much I'll be on during the day! My laptop is fixed!! YAy! So I should either pick it up tonight or tomorrow, hopefully tonight! Saturday afternoon I'm going to this big water park with my family, then that night I'm going to my friend's birthday party. So that should be fun. I think we are going to have a goodbye family dinenr but I'm not sure yet, I hope we do! I have so much to pack and not a lot of time! I really don't know what all to pack. I have to go buy another rolly bag thingy to bring to the airport because all my things I'm bringing to Alaska won't fit in the one big ass one I have. So yeah. I got a ton of dishes and kitchen stuff I need to pack! My Grams and Dad gave them to me, they have duckies on them! Hehe!! I gotta take Romeo to the Vet this week, because he has to have a check up to be on the plane, so I'm gonna get all his shots updated as well. I need to withdrawal myself from school also, so I can finish my Senior year in Alaska. My Grams is also taking me shopping for some "Alaska" clothes this week. Ahhh I'm glad this week is going to be really busy for me!! It makes time go by faster!! Well I'm fixing to go to Alyss'a birthday party so I gotta get ready!!

32 More Days Til Alaska!!!

So in 32 days I'm moving to Alaska!! I'm so excited!1 The days seem to be going by SO slow!! I went to UPS yesterday and bought huge boxes to start packing up my bedroom. I have a ton of stuff to pack, ugh!! But I am excited!! AHHH! I can't believe this is the end of the deployment! WE MADE IT!! I knew we would and we've been through a lot this past year, and yet we are still together!!

July needs to hurry up and be over with. My family doesn't want me to go, I'm only 17, almost 18 and kinda young to be leaving home and getting married. but I know they will be ok and I will be back in the in the fall to get my hair done again. So I'll see them then! I'm gonna miss everything so much! I'm kinda scared to move, I've never lived away from home, so yeah it's going to be really different and wonnderful since I'll be with my hubby! So I'm going to be very busy til I move, so I don't know how much I'll be updating this and checking it.


Daddy and me, a few days after I got hair extensions!

Funeral...

The funeral was today, and the service was so beautiful. hen I first got there I had a panic attack and ran out of the place. But my Grams, Dad and Brother came after me and told me it was ok and my Grams gave me a klonopin. I'm proud of myself for staying strong for my family, after that, and I didn't really cry but teared up, I HATE people seeing me cry. I knew my Mom would have wanted me to stay strong. She is in a better place and I'm happy that she is no longer in pain. I love her so much and nothing will ever change that. She is my mother and I am her daughter. She was the most wonderful mother and person and so very beautiful. I love you so much. I will try not to be sad, just like you told me, to not be sad when you died. I'm gonna miss you so much. Your the one of the greatest woman I know. I love you Mommy.

RIP Mom...

Around 12:15 my daddy and I found my mom dead in her bed.. I can't beleive this at all. I miss her so much already and it doesn't seem real. I hope she is ok up there and knows how much I love her and I'll never forget her, and that she was the BEST mother a girl could have! Bruce might be coming home, if they let him..trying to not get my hopes but because we are not married yet and they don't let fiance's go home...I need him so bad right now..

Mom, I love you so much I now know that you are no longer in any pain and that you are in a better place. I miss you. Don't worry a bout Jr we will take good care of him for you. Don't worry about us either, we will be ok..I know that you loved us so much and you didn't wanna leave is, I love you with all my heart mommy..