Womb With A Story: June 2009

Friday, June 26, 2009

AIT#2: Day Fifthteen.

So if you know me good, you know I'm in love with Michael Jackson.... And I'm just still shocked he passed away, GRR, pisses me off. I've been sd all day and crying.. Just really upsets me, I grew up listening to him, and trying to dance like him, haha. I guess the good do die young...I"m in total shock still, when I first heard about it Yesterday, I thought it was a joke. I know he had health problems, but I guess I was in shock and didn't want to believe it. My dream before I died was to see him dance in person... He was going on Tour and coming to Colorado.. UGH.. I know he will never be forgotten, I know I'll never forget him. He was the best dancer of our time, and NO ONE will dance as good as him. And a lot of his songs have touched my heart. RIP MJ... Anyways, Tasha flies in Tonight!! So I'm really excited. We are gonna do some special for Michael Jackson, we both loved him and his work..

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

AIT#2: Day Thirtheen.

11:45am: Well I just got back from Therapy, and I actually feel A LOT better today and just content!! I only got 2 hours of sleep last night, and I have SO much energy. So Romeo and me are about to go up in the Mountains and walk some nice trails and take some pictures. :) It's such a beautiful day outside, I gotta take advantage of it, and of actually feeling like I have energy!! I'm in a lot of pain, but I'm not letting that stop me or upset me at all Today. Today is all about me! And I'm gonna go enjoy myself. Update later!! Have fun in Class Baby, I LOVE YOU! And I'll call you when I get out of the Mountains! And stop worrying so much, I'll be fine. I'll have my attack dog, hahaaa!!! :) Hope everyone has a GREAAAAT! day Today!!!

3pm: So I just got back from the Mountains with Bubba!! And we hiked as far as Mommy's feet could, then went and sat down at the waterfall. Mine and Bruce's special place!! :) It was so peaceful out there, the water running, birds, wind...AHHHH FREEDOM!! :) I seriously love it out there!!! It just makes me feel so free and good!!! Romeo had a blast too!! When I tried to get him down by the waterfall, he flipped, so I stuck his butt in the car..LoL. Well I'm waiting on Bruce to finish cleaning his room, "room inspections" Then gonna webcam with my Husband then I'm gonna go to bed EARLY!! Since I only got 2 hours of sleep last night!!!

Monday, June 15, 2009

AIT#2: Day Three & Four.

So yesterday when I got home I was way too tired to Update. Went up in the mountains with Bestie and to the hunted tunnels, nothing really scary happened, just a BUNCH orbs. So was pretty fun, but woulda but much more fun if spooky stuff happened.

Oooh the ghost of little children... LOL. Good times!!! Anyways didn't do much after that, just went home and rested because I ended up getting sick. Then Today, I really didn't do much because I've been in a lot of pain, and I was trying not to take my pain pills, but I didn't go me!! I ended up cleaning the house, And then just went to Walmart and got some food and stuff for the Kids. I'll probably just chill with Tasha, since she flies out Tomorrow, and rest. I'm 3 days late, and took a preggo test, came back negative of course, but maybe it too early, I really hope this is the month of us. Keep them crossed!!!

.A Little About Me.

Hi, I'm Roxanne. I first started this blog to blog about my quest for baby hang. I've been TTC for about 5 years now with no success. I was told my only option to conceive was with IVF, couldn't afford it so IUI it was, even with a less than 2% I wanted to try, so I did some IUIs, no luck. I very recently got pregnant, NATURALLY!!! But ended in a miscarriage at 8 and half weeks in Aug 2011. I am now pregnant again!! Due July 16th, 2012 This blog will be about my Pregnancy, Infertiliy, TTC, grieving, me trying to get through life and struggling with 5 Autoimmune Diseases: Lupus, APS, Endometriosis, Fibromyglia, CFS, MTHFR....etc, and learning how to go through life on living back in the Civialian World. Just my everyday life.
I know that everything happens for a reason, I know things will work out for the best in the end. Just gotta keep your head up.

.Timeline.

Dec 1st 2006 ;; Started TTC

Oct 2009 ;; Started getting help from a Fertility Specialist.

Nov 12th, 2009 ;; HSG

Nov 12th 2009 ;; HSC

Dec 9th, 2009 ;; Put on Femara

Dec 18th, 2009 ;; 1st IUI - BFN

Jan 14th, 2010 ;; 2nd IUI - BFN

Feb 11, 2010 ;; 3rd IUI - BFN

June 28th, 2011 ;; BFP (naturally)

July 1st, 2011 ;; Beta=279!!

July 5th, 2011 ;; Beta= 1,200s!!

July 7th, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta- 5,000s!! Ultrasound, didn't get to see tho.

July 21st, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta=12,00s!! RhoGAM shot another ultrasound, didn't get to see.

July 22, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta=Dropped by a 1,000. Did an Ultrasound but baby's heartbeat was low. 93.

July 23rd, 2011 ;; Saw my OB. They did an Ultrasound, got to see my baby and see the heart actually beating!! Beta= 16,000s!! They went back up!! Heartbeat went up to 100!!!

Aug 2nd, 2011 ;; Went in for ultrasound, no heartbeat.. Went home and started bleeding...

Aug 2nd, 2011 ;; ER. They did an ultrasound no heartbeat.

Aug 10th, 2011 ;; OB wanted to see me, another ultrasound, about finished passing the baby.

Nov 7th, 2011 ;; BFP on HPT

Dec 3d, 2011 ;; ER. Beta 93,000. Heart rate 156!! EDD July 16th, 2012

RIP Michael Jackson - 1958-2009

Made By Me. Michael Jackson has touched my heart in SO many ways. He also had Lupus, and I really look up to him, because he still lived his life, and danced and everything through all the pain that comes with Lupus. I grew up listening to him. Started listening to him when I was 4 years old. It doesn't matter what mood I am in, every time I hear his music, I keep beyond happy and just dance. I love all of his songs, and honestly think he is, hands up, the greatest dancer that ever lived. And no one will ever be able to top him. He saved so many lives of children and helped so many children/people and just wanted World Peace and for no one to suffer. He was such a beautiful person on the inside and out and was just such an amazing person. My dream before I died was to go see Michael in Concert, and now that will never happen. I am still in shock and don't want to believe it, but I know he is in a better place and now no one can hurt him anymore. I didn't find out he had Lupus until he had passed away, I was in total shock. But know I know that if Michael that had Lupus among other Diseases like myself and still showed the world how great he was, then so can I, thank you Mihcael for giving me Hope. Michael Jackson was the only entertainer who truly made me happy even if I was in the worse possible mood. He may be gone, but he is still here with me and with all his true fans, that he loved so much.**Michael, you mean the world to me and have touched my heart so much, and your my inspiration. I wish I would have gotten to meet you, but I know I will see you in Heaven and be dancing with you. :) I'm glad you are no longer in pain and no one can hurt you anymore. I miss you and I love you with all of my heart.** Rest in Peace MJ.