Womb With A Story: June 2011

Thursday, June 30, 2011

BEAT THAT INFERTILITY!!!

So on Tuesday I had an appt with my ob/gyno to get on Lupron for my Endometriosis. I had told the nurse I was 2wks late but I was dealing with Infertility so I doubt I was pregnant. They had to test me anyway, esp before going on Lupron. So I left her my sample then just went back in the room&just prayed to God that I was&if I wasn't then I would understand. Another lady came in, guessing another nurse, &she said my doctor wanted me on Lupron&she didn't know what else to do. Well I figured the test came back negative. She left then like 10mins later my doctor came in&told me that the tests, she did 3, came back positive&showed up right after the urine came in contact with the hpt. Shocked&crying, I asked about 10 times, "I'm pregnant?!" Then I told her I needed to get Ryan, he was in the waiting room, I went out there, the nurse followed me, I told Ryan the dr wanted to talk to us then as soon as we got in the room I told him that I'm pregnant. His face just lite up. :) Doctor wanted to do an u/s so we went into the "pregnancy room" did an u/s but couldn't see anything, according to my last period I'd only be 6wks&2days, she said it was too early&to go get my levels checked&progesterone checked then come back in a week for another u/s also more blood work so she can compare them to see how many weeks I am&when I'm due.

So after over 4 years&7 months of trying to conceive, I AM PREGNANT!! This seems to be a huge dream!!! I'm just very excited&happy! I'm also very scared, since I'm at high risk, but I'm now starting to let that go&be positive. I'm leaving it in the Lord's hands&I know our baby will be safe&sound&very health. &in 8ish months I will be giving birth to a beautiful healthy baby! My symptoms have been crazy, I have every single 1st trimester symtom. With all my other pregnancies I didn't have ANY symptoms, so this is a great sign!!! I'm just over the moon happy, I have never been so happy before!! I can't wait even for all the rough times!! :)

.A Little About Me.

Hi, I'm Roxanne. I first started this blog to blog about my quest for baby hang. I've been TTC for about 5 years now with no success. I was told my only option to conceive was with IVF, couldn't afford it so IUI it was, even with a less than 2% I wanted to try, so I did some IUIs, no luck. I very recently got pregnant, NATURALLY!!! But ended in a miscarriage at 8 and half weeks in Aug 2011. I am now pregnant again!! Due July 16th, 2012 This blog will be about my Pregnancy, Infertiliy, TTC, grieving, me trying to get through life and struggling with 5 Autoimmune Diseases: Lupus, APS, Endometriosis, Fibromyglia, CFS, MTHFR....etc, and learning how to go through life on living back in the Civialian World. Just my everyday life.
I know that everything happens for a reason, I know things will work out for the best in the end. Just gotta keep your head up.

.Timeline.

Dec 1st 2006 ;; Started TTC

Oct 2009 ;; Started getting help from a Fertility Specialist.

Nov 12th, 2009 ;; HSG

Nov 12th 2009 ;; HSC

Dec 9th, 2009 ;; Put on Femara

Dec 18th, 2009 ;; 1st IUI - BFN

Jan 14th, 2010 ;; 2nd IUI - BFN

Feb 11, 2010 ;; 3rd IUI - BFN

June 28th, 2011 ;; BFP (naturally)

July 1st, 2011 ;; Beta=279!!

July 5th, 2011 ;; Beta= 1,200s!!

July 7th, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta- 5,000s!! Ultrasound, didn't get to see tho.

July 21st, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta=12,00s!! RhoGAM shot another ultrasound, didn't get to see.

July 22, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta=Dropped by a 1,000. Did an Ultrasound but baby's heartbeat was low. 93.

July 23rd, 2011 ;; Saw my OB. They did an Ultrasound, got to see my baby and see the heart actually beating!! Beta= 16,000s!! They went back up!! Heartbeat went up to 100!!!

Aug 2nd, 2011 ;; Went in for ultrasound, no heartbeat.. Went home and started bleeding...

Aug 2nd, 2011 ;; ER. They did an ultrasound no heartbeat.

Aug 10th, 2011 ;; OB wanted to see me, another ultrasound, about finished passing the baby.

Nov 7th, 2011 ;; BFP on HPT

Dec 3d, 2011 ;; ER. Beta 93,000. Heart rate 156!! EDD July 16th, 2012

RIP Michael Jackson - 1958-2009

Made By Me. Michael Jackson has touched my heart in SO many ways. He also had Lupus, and I really look up to him, because he still lived his life, and danced and everything through all the pain that comes with Lupus. I grew up listening to him. Started listening to him when I was 4 years old. It doesn't matter what mood I am in, every time I hear his music, I keep beyond happy and just dance. I love all of his songs, and honestly think he is, hands up, the greatest dancer that ever lived. And no one will ever be able to top him. He saved so many lives of children and helped so many children/people and just wanted World Peace and for no one to suffer. He was such a beautiful person on the inside and out and was just such an amazing person. My dream before I died was to go see Michael in Concert, and now that will never happen. I am still in shock and don't want to believe it, but I know he is in a better place and now no one can hurt him anymore. I didn't find out he had Lupus until he had passed away, I was in total shock. But know I know that if Michael that had Lupus among other Diseases like myself and still showed the world how great he was, then so can I, thank you Mihcael for giving me Hope. Michael Jackson was the only entertainer who truly made me happy even if I was in the worse possible mood. He may be gone, but he is still here with me and with all his true fans, that he loved so much.**Michael, you mean the world to me and have touched my heart so much, and your my inspiration. I wish I would have gotten to meet you, but I know I will see you in Heaven and be dancing with you. :) I'm glad you are no longer in pain and no one can hurt you anymore. I miss you and I love you with all of my heart.** Rest in Peace MJ.