Womb With A Story: September 2009

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

My 21st Birthday.UPDATED

So I turned the big 2-1!! today!! Bruce got me a diamond bracelet, 2 paris of new wedges (I LOVE shoes!!!) a dozen roses another Michael Jackson shirt! Then took me to Chilies! I was able to order my first drink! Hehe!! I got a very yummy Strawberry Daiquiri! Then Saturday we go going to FoCo to celebrate it with his family. I had a great birthday just wish I coulda spent it with my family and friends back home!!

He's the best!

My first drink as being 21, haha!!! Strawberry Daiquiri is very yummy!!

**We went to see his family in FoCo, it was really fun!! We went bar hopping, knew a DJ at this one bar, he played Michael Jackson for me, hehe!!**

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Michael Jackson's Funeral.

On Sept 3rd Michael Jackson was finally laid to rest, after 2 months of his death. It showed some coverage of his Funeral. The guest, his Kids and Family, and then Michael arrived. They open the casket door's and his Brother's were the Pallbearer, then that's all it showed. I cried through the whole thing, esp when I saw his Kids and saw the Herse with his beautiful casket. Sigh. I didn't want to believe it was real, but it really is.... It also brought me back to my Mother's Funeral, was just very hard for me. Sigh. *You can finally rest now Micheal, I love you and you will forever be in my heart. I miss you and was really looking forward to your World Wide Tour and seeing you. But I know I'll see you. Rest in peace Handsome*

Here;s what they show:

Thursday, September 3, 2009

EFMP Appt

So Yesterday we had to go back to the EFMP Lady and get more info, then just had to drop off my paperwork to my Dr, just stating I can not be in the sun or extra heat because it makes Lupus worse, so once I get the paperwork back, we go from there. It's really lame that they are trying to move us, but since he Reclassed, everything changed. So we are working on another Compassionate Reassignment to just stay where we are, unless they wanna give us a better base, then I am up for that. But I'd rather just really stay here because I got all my Doctors and everything and moving will be way way too stressful for me right now. We were gonna go to Oklahoma for the 21st on the 16th but we have this to do, so we aren't going. So I have no idea what I'm gonna do for my 21st yet... Any ideas???? ;)

My smile melts my heart!!!!

Michael Jackson is getting buried Tonight, FINALLY. He deserves to rest in peace. My heart just really goes out to his 3 Kids and his Family. He is still my inspiration and always will be. If he can dance and stuff with the SAME type of Lupus I have, then I can too. But I'm sure he was on meds for his, but he still lived his life to the fullest, and I just really look up to him and he had touched my heart in so so so many ways. He was the most beautiful person on this earth, inside and out. *I LOVE YOU MICHAEL! And I'll be lighting a candle Tonight at the time for your burial, I miss you and I know your in Heaven smiling down.*

.A Little About Me.

Hi, I'm Roxanne. I first started this blog to blog about my quest for baby hang. I've been TTC for about 5 years now with no success. I was told my only option to conceive was with IVF, couldn't afford it so IUI it was, even with a less than 2% I wanted to try, so I did some IUIs, no luck. I very recently got pregnant, NATURALLY!!! But ended in a miscarriage at 8 and half weeks in Aug 2011. I am now pregnant again!! Due July 16th, 2012 This blog will be about my Pregnancy, Infertiliy, TTC, grieving, me trying to get through life and struggling with 5 Autoimmune Diseases: Lupus, APS, Endometriosis, Fibromyglia, CFS, MTHFR....etc, and learning how to go through life on living back in the Civialian World. Just my everyday life.
I know that everything happens for a reason, I know things will work out for the best in the end. Just gotta keep your head up.

.Timeline.

Dec 1st 2006 ;; Started TTC

Oct 2009 ;; Started getting help from a Fertility Specialist.

Nov 12th, 2009 ;; HSG

Nov 12th 2009 ;; HSC

Dec 9th, 2009 ;; Put on Femara

Dec 18th, 2009 ;; 1st IUI - BFN

Jan 14th, 2010 ;; 2nd IUI - BFN

Feb 11, 2010 ;; 3rd IUI - BFN

June 28th, 2011 ;; BFP (naturally)

July 1st, 2011 ;; Beta=279!!

July 5th, 2011 ;; Beta= 1,200s!!

July 7th, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta- 5,000s!! Ultrasound, didn't get to see tho.

July 21st, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta=12,00s!! RhoGAM shot another ultrasound, didn't get to see.

July 22, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta=Dropped by a 1,000. Did an Ultrasound but baby's heartbeat was low. 93.

July 23rd, 2011 ;; Saw my OB. They did an Ultrasound, got to see my baby and see the heart actually beating!! Beta= 16,000s!! They went back up!! Heartbeat went up to 100!!!

Aug 2nd, 2011 ;; Went in for ultrasound, no heartbeat.. Went home and started bleeding...

Aug 2nd, 2011 ;; ER. They did an ultrasound no heartbeat.

Aug 10th, 2011 ;; OB wanted to see me, another ultrasound, about finished passing the baby.

Nov 7th, 2011 ;; BFP on HPT

Dec 3d, 2011 ;; ER. Beta 93,000. Heart rate 156!! EDD July 16th, 2012

RIP Michael Jackson - 1958-2009

Made By Me. Michael Jackson has touched my heart in SO many ways. He also had Lupus, and I really look up to him, because he still lived his life, and danced and everything through all the pain that comes with Lupus. I grew up listening to him. Started listening to him when I was 4 years old. It doesn't matter what mood I am in, every time I hear his music, I keep beyond happy and just dance. I love all of his songs, and honestly think he is, hands up, the greatest dancer that ever lived. And no one will ever be able to top him. He saved so many lives of children and helped so many children/people and just wanted World Peace and for no one to suffer. He was such a beautiful person on the inside and out and was just such an amazing person. My dream before I died was to go see Michael in Concert, and now that will never happen. I am still in shock and don't want to believe it, but I know he is in a better place and now no one can hurt him anymore. I didn't find out he had Lupus until he had passed away, I was in total shock. But know I know that if Michael that had Lupus among other Diseases like myself and still showed the world how great he was, then so can I, thank you Mihcael for giving me Hope. Michael Jackson was the only entertainer who truly made me happy even if I was in the worse possible mood. He may be gone, but he is still here with me and with all his true fans, that he loved so much.**Michael, you mean the world to me and have touched my heart so much, and your my inspiration. I wish I would have gotten to meet you, but I know I will see you in Heaven and be dancing with you. :) I'm glad you are no longer in pain and no one can hurt you anymore. I miss you and I love you with all of my heart.** Rest in Peace MJ.