Womb With A Story: July 2006

Thursday, July 27, 2006

SCREW THE ARMY!! * EDIT*

Bruce isn't coming home in 3 days..He's coming home in 4-6 more months!! He is going to Baghdad because the soldiers there can't do their damn jobs! This is bullshit! He was 4 fucking days to be coming home now 4-6 months!! I really don't wanna hear sorry and shit from anyone. Now it will be ONE FUCKING YEAR STRAIGHT I WON'T SEE HIM!! Bruce said there is a slight chance he could still be home in 3 days, but with the Army I fucking doubt it!!

Edit::
So it's offical 4-6 months now. What the fuck.. So Bruce called and he wants me to be strong for him but I don't think I have that extra strengh I need. If he stays there 6 months that'll be 14 months I won't see him. That's such bullshit! They should get other soldiers to go to Baghdad. Baghdad is so bad right now and I'm scared and worried. I just want to be with him..in his arms and married..and pregnant.

Monday, July 24, 2006

6 More Days Til Alaska!!

I'm so excited to be moving in 6 days and see my Soldier in 7!! YAY!!! So I got a lot of packing done yesterday, i was gonna pack more this afternoon but I'm in so much pain so I didn't. This week I'm gonna be very busy, so I don't know how much I'll be on during the day! My laptop is fixed!! YAy! So I should either pick it up tonight or tomorrow, hopefully tonight! Saturday afternoon I'm going to this big water park with my family, then that night I'm going to my friend's birthday party. So that should be fun. I think we are going to have a goodbye family dinenr but I'm not sure yet, I hope we do! I have so much to pack and not a lot of time! I really don't know what all to pack. I have to go buy another rolly bag thingy to bring to the airport because all my things I'm bringing to Alaska won't fit in the one big ass one I have. So yeah. I got a ton of dishes and kitchen stuff I need to pack! My Grams and Dad gave them to me, they have duckies on them! Hehe!! I gotta take Romeo to the Vet this week, because he has to have a check up to be on the plane, so I'm gonna get all his shots updated as well. I need to withdrawal myself from school also, so I can finish my Senior year in Alaska. My Grams is also taking me shopping for some "Alaska" clothes this week. Ahhh I'm glad this week is going to be really busy for me!! It makes time go by faster!! Well I'm fixing to go to Alyss'a birthday party so I gotta get ready!!

.A Little About Me.

Hi, I'm Roxanne. I first started this blog to blog about my quest for baby hang. I've been TTC for about 5 years now with no success. I was told my only option to conceive was with IVF, couldn't afford it so IUI it was, even with a less than 2% I wanted to try, so I did some IUIs, no luck. I very recently got pregnant, NATURALLY!!! But ended in a miscarriage at 8 and half weeks in Aug 2011. I am now pregnant again!! Due July 16th, 2012 This blog will be about my Pregnancy, Infertiliy, TTC, grieving, me trying to get through life and struggling with 5 Autoimmune Diseases: Lupus, APS, Endometriosis, Fibromyglia, CFS, MTHFR....etc, and learning how to go through life on living back in the Civialian World. Just my everyday life.
I know that everything happens for a reason, I know things will work out for the best in the end. Just gotta keep your head up.

.Timeline.

Dec 1st 2006 ;; Started TTC

Oct 2009 ;; Started getting help from a Fertility Specialist.

Nov 12th, 2009 ;; HSG

Nov 12th 2009 ;; HSC

Dec 9th, 2009 ;; Put on Femara

Dec 18th, 2009 ;; 1st IUI - BFN

Jan 14th, 2010 ;; 2nd IUI - BFN

Feb 11, 2010 ;; 3rd IUI - BFN

June 28th, 2011 ;; BFP (naturally)

July 1st, 2011 ;; Beta=279!!

July 5th, 2011 ;; Beta= 1,200s!!

July 7th, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta- 5,000s!! Ultrasound, didn't get to see tho.

July 21st, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta=12,00s!! RhoGAM shot another ultrasound, didn't get to see.

July 22, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta=Dropped by a 1,000. Did an Ultrasound but baby's heartbeat was low. 93.

July 23rd, 2011 ;; Saw my OB. They did an Ultrasound, got to see my baby and see the heart actually beating!! Beta= 16,000s!! They went back up!! Heartbeat went up to 100!!!

Aug 2nd, 2011 ;; Went in for ultrasound, no heartbeat.. Went home and started bleeding...

Aug 2nd, 2011 ;; ER. They did an ultrasound no heartbeat.

Aug 10th, 2011 ;; OB wanted to see me, another ultrasound, about finished passing the baby.

Nov 7th, 2011 ;; BFP on HPT

Dec 3d, 2011 ;; ER. Beta 93,000. Heart rate 156!! EDD July 16th, 2012

RIP Michael Jackson - 1958-2009

Made By Me. Michael Jackson has touched my heart in SO many ways. He also had Lupus, and I really look up to him, because he still lived his life, and danced and everything through all the pain that comes with Lupus. I grew up listening to him. Started listening to him when I was 4 years old. It doesn't matter what mood I am in, every time I hear his music, I keep beyond happy and just dance. I love all of his songs, and honestly think he is, hands up, the greatest dancer that ever lived. And no one will ever be able to top him. He saved so many lives of children and helped so many children/people and just wanted World Peace and for no one to suffer. He was such a beautiful person on the inside and out and was just such an amazing person. My dream before I died was to go see Michael in Concert, and now that will never happen. I am still in shock and don't want to believe it, but I know he is in a better place and now no one can hurt him anymore. I didn't find out he had Lupus until he had passed away, I was in total shock. But know I know that if Michael that had Lupus among other Diseases like myself and still showed the world how great he was, then so can I, thank you Mihcael for giving me Hope. Michael Jackson was the only entertainer who truly made me happy even if I was in the worse possible mood. He may be gone, but he is still here with me and with all his true fans, that he loved so much.**Michael, you mean the world to me and have touched my heart so much, and your my inspiration. I wish I would have gotten to meet you, but I know I will see you in Heaven and be dancing with you. :) I'm glad you are no longer in pain and no one can hurt you anymore. I miss you and I love you with all of my heart.** Rest in Peace MJ.