Funeral...

The funeral was today, and the service was so beautiful. hen I first got there I had a panic attack and ran out of the place. But my Grams, Dad and Brother came after me and told me it was ok and my Grams gave me a klonopin. I'm proud of myself for staying strong for my family, after that, and I didn't really cry but teared up, I HATE people seeing me cry. I knew my Mom would have wanted me to stay strong. She is in a better place and I'm happy that she is no longer in pain. I love her so much and nothing will ever change that. She is my mother and I am her daughter. She was the most wonderful mother and person and so very beautiful. I love you so much. I will try not to be sad, just like you told me, to not be sad when you died. I'm gonna miss you so much. Your the one of the greatest woman I know. I love you Mommy.

RIP Mom...

Around 12:15 my daddy and I found my mom dead in her bed.. I can't beleive this at all. I miss her so much already and it doesn't seem real. I hope she is ok up there and knows how much I love her and I'll never forget her, and that she was the BEST mother a girl could have! Bruce might be coming home, if they let him..trying to not get my hopes but because we are not married yet and they don't let fiance's go home...I need him so bad right now..

Mom, I love you so much I now know that you are no longer in any pain and that you are in a better place. I miss you. Don't worry a bout Jr we will take good care of him for you. Don't worry about us either, we will be ok..I know that you loved us so much and you didn't wanna leave is, I love you with all my heart mommy..

Deployment Christmas

Well my Christmas wasn't so good, only thing good about it, was my family, and getting to talk to Bruce and that's it. But I am still glad this will be our last Christmas apart and our last Christmas before we get married!! Anyways, yesterday I was really sick and in pain ALL day..and running a 101.2 temp so i wasn't online or anything. Anyways fixing to go to the mall and go shopping, yay! Gonna get a coat and some more books and some stuff for my soldier and Romeo!! I'm talking to Bruce now YAY!!! I miss him so very much and I can't wait until he is home!! I love you baby!! Stay safe my love! Here are some pictures from Christmas!

Mom and Sarah on Christmas Day 2005.


Romeo in his new shirt!!


My brother and sister.


2 of my sisters.

He's Going Back To Iraq..

Bruce just left and went back to Iraq...


I miss you so much already baby...

School Taking Up My Time With Bruce!! GRRR!

Today seems like a long day and like 3 we left and took my little sister Burger King, then we went to Walmart and got some stuff then Bruce took me and my sister, AJ to get our nails filled and then we played a game, and yeah I'm just very tired!! School is tomorrow, GRRR. Bruce is gonna pick me up at lunch so we can spend that time together, so we'd only be apart 3 hours before lunch and 3 years after lunch, so that is not too bad.


Roses Bruce got me Today!! Aren't they so beautiful!!


Bruce and my baby sister, Sarah!!

Romeo Got New Clothes! :)

I just got back from the mall with Bruce and my sisters. We got Romeo a coat and a shirt! The shirt looks beyond cute on romeo but he wasn't digging the coat esp the little hood!! We didn't go on the pinic because it was rainy this morning so yeah. We may go see Saw 2 later tonight, but I don't know what we are doing because I'm having the worst pelvic pain! Man what is up with my body?! This pelvic pain, always extremely tired even when i get a great nights rest!! And my body hurts all over all the time and sometimes my feet swell and I get red rashes on my face and arms...


Romeo's new Christmas shirt!!


He was NOT too happy about the hood, haha but looks too damn cute!!

Daddy and Romeo!!

Having A Blast!

I've been having the most wonderful time with Bruce!! I'm so happy he is home!! In about an hour we are leaving to go get lunch at North Intermiate High School with my 2 sisters!! Then we might go see a movie alter, but idk what else we are doing yet. But tomorrow Bruce, and our baby, Romeo are going to the park and having a picnic!!

Bruce Is Home for R&R!!!

Bruce is finally here YAY!! I'm so happy that he is finally home! He called after 1pm and my brother, Sammy and I went and picked him up!! I only have taken a few pictures so far, here they are! Update more later!!