Funeral...

The funeral was today, and the service was so beautiful. hen I first got there I had a panic attack and ran out of the place. But my Grams, Dad and Brother came after me and told me it was ok and my Grams gave me a klonopin. I'm proud of myself for staying strong for my family, after that, and I didn't really cry but teared up, I HATE people seeing me cry. I knew my Mom would have wanted me to stay strong. She is in a better place and I'm happy that she is no longer in pain. I love her so much and nothing will ever change that. She is my mother and I am her daughter. She was the most wonderful mother and person and so very beautiful. I love you so much. I will try not to be sad, just like you told me, to not be sad when you died. I'm gonna miss you so much. Your the one of the greatest woman I know. I love you Mommy.