New GYNO.

So after it being a year...I asked for a new GYNO... for a woman..because maybe a woman would understand more and actually help! So runs 28 tubes of blood..and does a physical exam. Well after a few weeks the blood test come back and I go see her again. Well she said all my blood test look alright and that she THINKS the lining of my uterus is not strong enough to carry a child. (I'm in tears at this point and very heartbroken) I ask her if she will put me on Clomid or anything.. and she refuses..1st: because my PTSD and depression, she doesn't think it would be good for me to be pregnant and 2nd: because we were waiting on PCS'ing from Alaska. I'm very upset.. cuss her out and storm the hell out!!!! and start to think it's just not gonna happen for me is it?

My heart is broken...

Tattoo I got for our Little Baby, and Bruce will be getting the same one. Got it April 2008

I'M FINALLY PREGNANT!

Daddy kiss baby hang @ 5 weeks.


8 weeks.

Pelvic Pain?

So this pelvic pain from the Endo has just gotten way worse..so I go to the GYNO to see what he can do to get me OUT of this pain! Well he suggest Lupron (a shot to make you go through menopause) Well I said sure for a few months. So I get on the Lupron.. I had the worse worse mood swings in the world!! and OMG the hot flashes!!! WOW!! I'd stick my head in the freezer to get it to stop!!! and It only helped the pelvic pain just a little... but my body felt as if it were about 40. BOO!

First Gyno Appt.

So I went to the GYNO today and not much luck! He wants me to try for 1 year before putting me on any Fertility Drugs. He doesn't seem to think I have a problem conceiving, but maybe miscarrying. I explained to him that the GYNO that did my surgery said I may not even be able to have kids and that I need to have my kids ASAP. But still said to wait a year... This really breaks my heart...

BREAKING DOWN...

Still not pregnant..I know it's ONLY been 3 months, but still very upset and hoping it doesn't take much longer. Starting to think I'm seeing pregnant woman EVERYWHERE and it just tears my heart up so bad. I just want to be a Mommy! I just don't understand.....Please God... give us at least 1 Child.... I just don't understand why it's taken this long, yeah yeah I know it's only been 3 months but I figured we would get pregnant on the 1st try... I'm just breaking down and I don't know what to do, at all. I've never been through this...TTC and not being able to get pregnant... I have been doing some research and it says couples with NO fertility issues it takes up to a year to get pregnant.. How can I wait 1 YEAR?? Or even longer than that since I do have fertility issues... I just want a baby. And it breaks my heart to see my husband's eyes tear up after AF comes..

JUST MARRIED!!

On Dec 6, 2006 exchanged vows and got married!! :) best day of my life!! So yesturday I went and got my last name changed, and got my military ID, we still have to go back on post and go to the hospital. I have the flu :( I shoulda got a flu shot before Ii moved, but I never get it and never get the flu..so I did'nt think I'd need it. =(

It's sooo wonderful having my husband home!! I have'nt been this happy in a looong ass time!! hmm I love him SO much! so tonight we are going to this hockey game thing, because they are doing something for the soldiers that got purple hearts, and his company told him he has to go..so yeah. never been to a hockey game before, so it should be cool, I hope. I dont think I should be going out with the flu, but he has to go, and I wanna go with my hubby. =)well heres a few pictures of us getting married, more of them are on myspace.


BRUCE PUTTING THE WEDDING BAND ON MY FINGER!


PUTTING HIS WEDDING BAND ON HIS FINGER!


YOU MAY KISS THE BRIDE!!


HUSBAND AND WIFE!!

HE IS HOME!!!

After a very long 16 month deployment and not seeing him for 1 year and 4 days straight, he is FINALLY HOME FOR GOOD!! I am soooo happy!! I haven't been this happy in a long time! Last night was so so so wonderful! Lots of amazing love making, hehe!! And a very nice bubble bath!! It's just so nice to finally have him home, I have missed him so much but very worth the wait!

The Homecoming wasn't that long. When they got to the base, we were in a big gym thingy, they opened the doors and all the soldiers go out of the buses and marched in front of us. I got it all recorded! We were not worried about taking pictures so we only got 1 homecoming picture, LOL. This Soldier said some words and everyone ran to their soldier...Oooh once I saw Bruce I jumped on him and wrapped my legs around him and kissed him so deeply!!! Our love is much stronger now! We can get through anything.

Well we started TTC last night and I'm hoping I will get a BFP at the end of the month!! I had a Laparoscopy done last month to find out I have Endometriosis and the doctors want to already give me a hysterectomy at the age of 18!??!!? But I told them HELL NO! I had a miscarriage right before Bruce deployed in July 05 and I am still not doing so very well with that. We even TTC on his 2 weeks of R&R from Iraq in Nov 2005 but no luck... When I got pregnant in late April I was sooo happy even though I was only 17 but Bruce and I were so happy and excited. We were already engaged and knew we were getting married and gonna spend the rest of our lives together and have lots of children! :) Our whole lives all we've ever wanted, besides each other, is children. So I really hope it happens fast! The doctor that did my surgery said it could take a few months or a year or 2 to even get pregnant because of how bad my Endometriosis is, but then again he said I also could get pregnant the SAME month we start trying. It all depends on both the people and the woman's body and man's sperm. So I'm really hoping and praying I get pregnant THIS month!! How exciting would that be! Him get home and BAM I get pregnant and in 9 months we are holding our babygirl or babyboy. I know God will help me with getting pregnant and I don't think it's going to take too long! I bet by the end of the year that I will be pregnant!! Please pray for us!!

First kiss in 12 months and 4 days and my baby's purple heart!!