Womb With A Story: January 2012

Thursday, January 12, 2012

New Baby, New Year.

A lot has changed since I last updated my blog. On Nov 7th, my period was a day late and I had just been feeling pregnant so I took a home pregnancy test and it came back positive. I couldn't believe it cause I just miscarried 2 months before, but I guess you're the most fertile after miscarrying and giving birth, I knew that about after birth but not miscarrying. I am 13 weeks and 3 days! My EDD is July 16th. My last ultrasound was last month, heart rate was 156!!! My progesterone is really high, everything has been normal, so far, with this pregnancy. I go in on the 18th to see my OB, I am very excited and she is going to try to see if we can see the sex. I will only be 14 and half weeks but depending on the baby we just may be able to see!

I'm beyond excited but yet have never been this scared in my entire life. I have never been this far along before and just the fact that I just miscarried in August. I tried to not get so attached to this baby, but kinda hard when you have a teeny human growing inside of you. I love this baby so much and would do anything for my child. I've been having many fears, about a lot of things lately and yes I know that that is normal. And being a single mommy-to-be, yes I'm single now, makes me even more scared. I just keep wondering what is gonna happen, which is driving me insane! I'm wondering way too many things. Which is really stressing me out. I need to stop stressing myself out and enjoy being pregnant!!

As for my symptoms, I have every single 1st trimester symptom...The morning sickness has been very bad tho, just haven't puked this pregnancy, yet!! The past week my nauseousness has gone just about away! But my fatigue has gotten worse..HMM?? Thought it was suppose to get better toward/in the 2nd trimester? Just feeling so run down, I get SO tired just taking a shower/bath!! Then there is a lot of pressure in my belly, it really hurts! I know it will only get worse but the pain is just very annoying! And what has been weird and new symptoms is for the past 2 days I just wll bawl my eyes out for reasons that you should not be crying over..??!! t's crazy!!!

God has surly blessed me with this little miracle!!

10 weeks and 6 days 12 weeks and 5 days

.A Little About Me.

Hi, I'm Roxanne. I first started this blog to blog about my quest for baby hang. I've been TTC for about 5 years now with no success. I was told my only option to conceive was with IVF, couldn't afford it so IUI it was, even with a less than 2% I wanted to try, so I did some IUIs, no luck. I very recently got pregnant, NATURALLY!!! But ended in a miscarriage at 8 and half weeks in Aug 2011. I am now pregnant again!! Due July 16th, 2012 This blog will be about my Pregnancy, Infertiliy, TTC, grieving, me trying to get through life and struggling with 5 Autoimmune Diseases: Lupus, APS, Endometriosis, Fibromyglia, CFS, MTHFR....etc, and learning how to go through life on living back in the Civialian World. Just my everyday life.
I know that everything happens for a reason, I know things will work out for the best in the end. Just gotta keep your head up.

.Timeline.

Dec 1st 2006 ;; Started TTC

Oct 2009 ;; Started getting help from a Fertility Specialist.

Nov 12th, 2009 ;; HSG

Nov 12th 2009 ;; HSC

Dec 9th, 2009 ;; Put on Femara

Dec 18th, 2009 ;; 1st IUI - BFN

Jan 14th, 2010 ;; 2nd IUI - BFN

Feb 11, 2010 ;; 3rd IUI - BFN

June 28th, 2011 ;; BFP (naturally)

July 1st, 2011 ;; Beta=279!!

July 5th, 2011 ;; Beta= 1,200s!!

July 7th, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta- 5,000s!! Ultrasound, didn't get to see tho.

July 21st, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta=12,00s!! RhoGAM shot another ultrasound, didn't get to see.

July 22, 2011 ;; ER Trip. Beta=Dropped by a 1,000. Did an Ultrasound but baby's heartbeat was low. 93.

July 23rd, 2011 ;; Saw my OB. They did an Ultrasound, got to see my baby and see the heart actually beating!! Beta= 16,000s!! They went back up!! Heartbeat went up to 100!!!

Aug 2nd, 2011 ;; Went in for ultrasound, no heartbeat.. Went home and started bleeding...

Aug 2nd, 2011 ;; ER. They did an ultrasound no heartbeat.

Aug 10th, 2011 ;; OB wanted to see me, another ultrasound, about finished passing the baby.

Nov 7th, 2011 ;; BFP on HPT

Dec 3d, 2011 ;; ER. Beta 93,000. Heart rate 156!! EDD July 16th, 2012

RIP Michael Jackson - 1958-2009

Made By Me. Michael Jackson has touched my heart in SO many ways. He also had Lupus, and I really look up to him, because he still lived his life, and danced and everything through all the pain that comes with Lupus. I grew up listening to him. Started listening to him when I was 4 years old. It doesn't matter what mood I am in, every time I hear his music, I keep beyond happy and just dance. I love all of his songs, and honestly think he is, hands up, the greatest dancer that ever lived. And no one will ever be able to top him. He saved so many lives of children and helped so many children/people and just wanted World Peace and for no one to suffer. He was such a beautiful person on the inside and out and was just such an amazing person. My dream before I died was to go see Michael in Concert, and now that will never happen. I am still in shock and don't want to believe it, but I know he is in a better place and now no one can hurt him anymore. I didn't find out he had Lupus until he had passed away, I was in total shock. But know I know that if Michael that had Lupus among other Diseases like myself and still showed the world how great he was, then so can I, thank you Mihcael for giving me Hope. Michael Jackson was the only entertainer who truly made me happy even if I was in the worse possible mood. He may be gone, but he is still here with me and with all his true fans, that he loved so much.**Michael, you mean the world to me and have touched my heart so much, and your my inspiration. I wish I would have gotten to meet you, but I know I will see you in Heaven and be dancing with you. :) I'm glad you are no longer in pain and no one can hurt you anymore. I miss you and I love you with all of my heart.** Rest in Peace MJ.