I know it's been a few months since I have last updated, hell it's a new year, haha! A lot has been going on in the past few months, and when I say a lot I mean a lot...I dunno where to begin.. Bruce and I are getting a divorce... Why you ask? Well there are many reasons why but all I'm gonna say is Infertility has made us grown very apart and we both have changed... That's all I'm gonna say... We are staying on good terms and friends though. It feels more real now since I have been telling some people. I know these next few months are really gonna be hard on me...and with my moms and grams death anniversary coming up...I've been so depressed lately with those 2 dates coming up... *sighs* It's also gonna be hard stepping back into the Civilian World after 8 years of the Military life...it's just gonna be a tough adjustment for a while. I don't have much to say at the moment, well I do...just so many thoughts running through my brain that I can't slow it down and write what I want to say and all in order so it makes sense, LoL!
A lot of people keep asking me if I'm just gonna delete my blog and start fresh, answer is no because that's 5 years of my life right there so I'm keeping it up. I'm working on a new layout and new domain soon, so bare with me please. The divorce seems more real now since I'm blogging about it and changing my layout..I never wanted this to happen nor did I think it ever would..but I do know that everything happens for a reason, so there is a reason for this. I'm doing my best to move forward but I know it's gonna be a lot harder once he is home and I actually see him. But I know this is the best thing for me and his as well. It will be much better in the long run. *sighs* I will always love him though. I really just want my divorce to be final because I think it will be a little easier on me, with helping me move on...maybe??! I'm not really gonna blog much about my divorce but I will keep ya'll updated on what is going on..I'm just so tired of everyone asking me about Bruce, everyday, I can't take it..it's too painful...
Side note, I'm sick with bronchitis and the flu right now and with this cold snowy weather my Lupus, Fibromyalgia has flared up much worse same with my Arthritis...I just can't wait for Spring to get here but I know that Oklahoma has not seen the last of more snow and cold weather this Winter!! As much as I miss Alaska I'm so glad I'm not living there right now! It's late and I can't think too much more right now...but I am gonna try to blog everyday and get some new vlogs up as well, because I know blogging is gonna be a coping thing for me and help me, like it always does, like ya'll always do. I hope everything is well with ya'll, sorry I haven't been around much just too much going on, I also want to thank ya'll for being there for me, it means the world to me!!
Ohh...I found lumps on both my breasts..so I gotta call my GYNO and get in asap and make sure that it's not Breast Cancer or anything else bad... Please pray for me, thank you so much.
