Earth Day.

Earth Day is a day where we appreciate this Earth and all it's beauty! We need to start taking better care of our beautiful Earth, for our children, for our children's children.

Michael Jackson's Planet Earth Poem:


Michael Jackson's Earth Song:


Listen to his messages, and let's make the change. Together we can do it. But we need to do it together and fast.

AF, You Bitch!!!

So we all HATE AF, but right now she needs to show so we can get back to trying esp before he Deploys. I am 32 days late...I got a Progesterone shot 2 days ago, and the nurse said my period would start within a week, and if it doesn't start in 2 weeks I may be pregnant. Which I don't think I am..we are not that lucky.. I know that she is on her way and close, because how bad my pelvic pain has been since I got that shot.. Not only am I hurting on the left, like always, but on the right as well, and my whole entire lower back..I can't put ANY pressure on it...My pain meds are hardly even working.. My Fertility Doctors have NO clue in why I am late, she said it could be from the cyst, but I have had cysts before and it didn't make me late. So they really have NO idea on why I am 32 days late. My 2ww has turned into a 8ww.. This has just been a very hard 8 weeks and I just want this cycle to end so we can go to the next one...Why is this happening? Esp RIGHT BEFORE Bruce deploys...??? I just hope the Progesterone makes AF come real soon, I don't wanna 9ww or 10ww! I think I am going insane!! AF, I know we have our differences and I hate you and you are never welcome, but this time I am begging you to come. Pleaseeee AF, stop being a bitch and just show up!! Why are you doing this to me?? Where are you? Where have you been??!!? Please just show up already..

Where Are You AF?!???!!

So AF is 15 days late. I saw my Fertility Doctor not last week but the week before when I was 5 days late. She did an ultrasound and saw the cyst and the fluid, it had erupted and I know I had a cyst because I could feel it because it was poking out. And I couldn't put ANY pressure on my left lower back or front... I had gotten it from all the fertility drugs, no baby but a big cyst, just my luck! So she said I'm late because the cyst and I don't think that may be the case. I've had cysts before and much bigger ones and they never made me late. I'm trying to not get my hopes up, I really am but it's so hard when your this late. I've hardly been having ANY pelvic pain, which is not normal for me. And when I do have it it's not that bad. Tomorrow I'm gonna call the clinic and go in for a blood test on Wednesday and if I'm not pregnant (I have good a feeling though) then I want a progesterone shot to make me start. We only have like 2 more cycles before he deploys. :( I just want AF to come so we can get back to trying. This 2ww has turned into a 4ww... This is just not normal for me. And I've been gaining weight, my boobs are huge and don't hurt, they always hurt right before I start and during AF. I just want to know what is going on with my body! If AF isn't coming because I'm pregnant then I'll be the happiest woman alive! So please just keep us in your prayers. We are running out of months... :(

On moving, we are still in Colorado and we may be staying another month, we should find out tomorrow, hopefully. We are trying to stay because I can't get in to see my doctor or therapist. So I guess we'll find out tomorrow I'm hoping!